Filed under: Cup of Sweet and Bitter Musings
I forgot how to write.
I’m thinking of getting off the Net for a while, Net at home that is. Ever since we had DSL at the flat, I am always, as in always, online and it’s not making me productive. That means I haven’t been doing much lately. Just surfing the net, ym-ing, and… basically that’s it. Ugh. I’m sooo slow reading my books. And I hate it because I have this habit of finishing the book I read first even though I want to read the one which I bought next. I have three books in waiting while I force myself to finish Almost Moon. Don’t get me wrong, Alice Sebold’s book is great but I don’t know which is dragging which, the plot or my days. I have my art supplies waiting in vain too. I bought and received them for Christmas but until now, I haven’t started a sketch, not even a dot. Grrr. So yeah, I better take a break from being online too much.
Right after I get home, I’ll be eating a light snack while reading and then taking a nap instead of going online. Then on to dinner and some tv time (because yeah, I haven’t watched Wowowee since er, I couldn’t remember the last time! And even if I’m not really missing the show, I miss lounging in the sofa with the people at home and being able to share what I watched with the people at work). I will try to sleep earlier too. I started last night by sleeping at 9 o’clock. It worked fine until I woke up past midnight and couldn’t sleep again til 2am! Hmn, it takes a lot of getting used to but it will work. Been there, done that.
I’m feeling sad lately. I don’t know. Maybe it’s an effect of staying at home for two days without going out… on a weekend. Bummer! Yep, I am suffering from “cabin fever.” The moment I walked out in the sun today, I squint and I realize, hey, there’s life outside! Alleluia! Gawd, I’m pathetic.
I hate not having someone to talk to. I’m madaldal and I can talk about anything under the sun, except physics and math. But this is the moment when I want a coffee night. I need it. Really, really, need it. I want to see and talk with my friends and I want my iced white chocolate mocha, thank you. I want to get drunk in the euphoria of a Friday night when everyone is going out of their work to meet up and have some fun because it’s a weekend after. I want to travel somewhere. I’ll go for an impromptu one. Zambales? Baguio? Tagaytay? Anywhere but here! Now!
Yeah I know, this is an effect of boredom. Gawd, I’m bored!
I am praying that this will pass.
